THINGS HAVE NOT GONE TO PLAN
Every single thing I’ve planned in 2022 has
Not. Gone. To. Plan.
◦ I had planned to run a day retreat in January but my co facilitator had rona so I had to run it myself
◦ I had planned a weekend retreat in February with a friend and no one booked in. So we went away and used the space as a weekend getaway with friends instead
◦ My Rebirthing Breathwork workshop in March was postponed because I had rona
◦ I had to turned up 2 days late to my biggest retreat of the year (Citta Retreat) in April because I was recovering from rona an was too exhausted to fly
◦ I planned another day retreat for autumn which I now can’t go to, so my co-facilitator will run the event alone
◦ And I planned an Easter long weekend getaway down the south coast with my friend and kids, one of which ended up in hospital at 5am Easter Sunday so I didn’t get to spend time with her at all.
Plans are funny - we rest joy, anticipation and excitement in something that’s not here and if attached to the outcome being exactly as we envisioned, it can cause a lot of suffering.
Through all of this change, unexpected twists and turns, events being postponed, and things not happening the way I wanted, I’ve noticed how adaptable and capable I am of holding uncertainty.
Adaptability is a human quality I think many of us are lacking. We’ve had our fair share of learning to adapt to radical change the past 2 years. But raising a neurodiverse child instilled this capacity to surrender into the unknown and be ready to change the course of direction in any given moment many years ago.
I appreciate my ability to go “Oh right, we’re going over there now. That’s not what I expected, but cool ... how can we make good of this new situation?”
There’s a lot of freedom in cultivating that level of resilience, adaptation, and non-attachment. To be in a full state of surrender and flow, no what greater plan we’re being ushered into.
It feels soft, easeful and spacious.
From that place I can be curious about the reasons why things happen in unexpected ways but unattached to knowing, and certainly not bothered to control any outcome. I’ve had enough opportunities to know it would be futile to even try.
It keeps life interesting.
Some epic things have happened as a result of these changes. I met some new people, made new friends, new collaborations have been formed, triggers have been identified that have lead to deep healing, beautiful conversations have unfolded, I’m getting clearer in my boundaries and a stronger voice in requesting them, my values have been affirmed, and I’m seeing my friends step up to their truth, power and integrity.
So it’s better than “all good”.
We’re all being asked to keep showing up, creating, musing and intending, and then letting go of the how, what, when + where.
Maybe things not going to your plan, is a path to something you couldn’t even imagine.