COMING HOME
I look up ahead of the dusty path, my boots all worn
My toes peer through the unravelled stitching
On my sweaty socks beneath the scuffed surface of my shoes
I carry a pack too heavy to bear, the straps knotted together
Ripped apart on the last leg of the relentless path
Where the edges were lined with thorny roses stripped bare of their petals
My shoulders stoop forward
The weight of the baggage a burden to my frail body
I lost my way along this dusty path
I took too many wrong turns
Or maybe it was the right turn; travel this way or that
A fork in the road, choices to make
Perhaps the direction I chose to walk
Was exactly the way I was meant to be going?
Even when I couldn’t find my way
I forged ahead in the direction of the arrow
To places that stripped me naked and cold
In forests and mountain ranges, bridges and holes
Where I tumbled and tripped on roots upheaved
In the belief I was headed the right way
I walked through valleys and climbed mountains too high
I swam across oceans and suffered in harsh highs
Of a summer sun and a winter too cold
Where nothing protected me from the external elements
Or the internal battle of stories too damn hard to live through anymore
I fought off hideous beasts that threatened to swallow me whole in the dark of night
I desperately latched onto branches in hope that their strength would save me
From the quick sand that smothered my boots and drew me down
The branches too weak or unwilling;
They snapped off the trunk and left me alone to wade through the muddy swamp alone
To scramble to higher drier lands
And I did.
I dusted my boots and stitched up my clothes, torn in the eye of the hurricane that swept across my path on an autumnal day
And I found my way to the dusty path
Choosing again, this way or that
I traversed across plains that kissed the horizon
And slept under stars that gently reminded me
I was, in fact, going the right way
This was, in fact, my path
Through twists and turns
Going backwards, at times, and around in circles
Scratching my head wondering, how the hell did I end up back here?
And although I am bruised and broken and messed up
I look beyond the memories once lived upon that dusty track
That carried me weary and silent and lost
To that moment when I looked up and saw that I was not
I saw the oasis when I raised my head
Near the end of the path that ripped me to shreds
And the wind whispered softly, ‘One foot then the next’
So I did what I was told
Allowing the sun on an early Spring morning
To dry up the frost bite that slept with me the night before
And somehow I knew that my boots would stay together for the final moments of the journey
That felt like a war
They would carry me there
They stayed with me through
To where I was going
Where? To where am I going?
The horizon crept closer
The end of the path where the frangipani grows
Its scent luring me in to the moment I could stand
Where the dust washed away and the grass grows proudly
Where my boots are repaired and my pack is empty
Where my clothes are clean and the bruises have faded
Where the scars remind me that I once was broken
Where the sign gives no option, just a proud arrow ahead
So I take those last steps and leave what I carried
For the distance I travelled to end my long journey
To the place on the hill where the sun shines bright
And the breeze reminds me
That the journey was, in fact, right
It took me back there
To the place that I started
In the centre of me
My heart
My home
I once was there, when I came to this land
And I found my way home to where I’d always been.